Someday… maybe…

I’ll feel better.

I’ll wake up like everyone else and get out of bed and not feel like I need another hour of sleep.

I’ll lose weight and not starve in the process.

Maybe, just maybe,

I’ll be able to eat normal foods.

Went to a new doctor this year. She seems to notice all the different pieces and is looking at how they fit together. If she’s right and all of this junk has ONE or even TWO underlying causes I’ll be happy to work on fixing it. We shall see. But today, today is another day or not being able to wake up normal. Another day of not having the thrive to move. Another day of, can I just sleep til it’s over? Another day where no one understands that you just don’t feel good. That nothing is working.

Another day… some day… I will thrive and feel better!

Signs you may not notice…

So, you’ve noticed that your friend only seems to do stuff with one or two other people and you wonder why. Everything you see on Facebook is so upbeat and positive. They must be doing awesome, right?

Truth, no! Just because everything looks great from the outside does NOT mean everything is wonderful on the inside. If you checked you’d find that the reason they only seem to do things with one or two people is because they check in on them and convince them to get out of the house. Even if it’s just to go visit. Maybe, they don’t post on Facebook except to post good things because they don’t share the negative. Maybe, just maybe, they just don’t want the world to know how down they really are. Maybe they try really really hard to stay positive and just sometimes find that really hard to do.

Don’t assume you’re being ignored if they don’t reach out. Don’t assume they don’t want to spend time with you. Just check in. Check to see if maybe they are fighting a real depression that takes control when they just can’t take it any more. If this is you or your friend or family member, remember everyone may need help at some point. You aren’t alone. Depression can hit anyone.

Today is Mental Health Awareness Day

Today, I will share my truth. I am plagued by depression. Depression doesn’t have me, but depression does fight with me.

It fights with me to stay in bed and not start the day.

It fights with me to not be positive and bring light to the world.

It fights with me to not go out shopping.

It fights with me to not go visit my grandbabies.

It fights with me to not go out and play with the dog.

Know this:

I WILL get out of bed and start my day!

I WILL continue to be positive and try to bring a light to the world.

I WILL go shopping when I need to (Yup, today).

I WILL continue to go visit my grandbabies to enjoy their beautiful light and love.

I WILL go outside and enjoy the sun and play with Teddy.

Depression may plague me, but, *I* will define me!